Pure Greatness.

It has dawned on me only tonight how abnormally busy my life is and how boring it has made me. Ever since I got my license, I haven’t had a break from driving and I’m tired of it. If I’m not driving myself to school, I have to pick up my sisters from school or my mom from work or do errands for whoever. And then school…well, it’s a big blahhh. I’m super determined to transfer out by next year but the school work I get can be a burnout at times. It can’t go on like this forever. I can’t have 12-hour days for the rest of my life. I know, the real world is worse, like having a job and living on my own, but just let me have my moment here.

Anyway, it’s only now that I’m beginning to appreciate the value of having nothing to do, and just being, y’know, chill&relaxed. And not being so godamn serious all the time. Because I have come to realize that more and more I am becoming an exceptionally serious person. It’s the only way I can get my schedule running smoothly, everything in neat little rows. But I want to laugh, and giggle, and be irreverent, and not assess my self-worth according to the amount of output I produce.

Hmm good night. Another business calculus study session tomorrow. Hooray.